Motivation Zero
They're all the same.
Ever had one of those days when you just can’t be bothered? You don’t wanna get up, you don’t wanna eat. You just don’t care. But amidst all that – you’re actually not depressed, either? That’s a different thing. No. I mean I was plain – can’t be arsed. Or as polite society puts it, I was experiencing the great ennui.
Well, today was one of those days.
I need to write in this more. There’s some kind of purpose behind writing but I’m not sure what it is. Maybe it can pay the bills after all. I think I could write all day. I wrote this today and it made me feel good.
So maybe I’m some kind of writer?
Those who can’t, teach. That phrase has been bugging me all year. And now the teaching – or rather – facilitating learning protocols at Curtin Uni is over and I’m not sure I want to go back. Which means I’ll be solely dependent on Geoffrey again.
Whatever I am, a university lecturer is not it. I’ve been moonlighting as that for way to long. Sounds cool at parties. 5 years straight, but on and off for 15 years since 1995.
Tomorrow is the last day of semester and I have to get a swag load of assignments marked by the end of this week. I actually enjoy doing that but the fun is wearing thin and the assignments are all starting to look the same.
My favourite class is this one, but there are hardly any students in it! We write for 20 minutes every week. To music. That’s the best part. Even I get some writing done. Tomorrow will be a shock. We’re going to write solid for 40 minutes – to Klaus schutz music.
This’ll be fun…
2 Comments
Oh Edwin, so sweet of u! So our class is your favourite class! haha.
Well, i’d say teaching is not easy. How to make a class interesting is really a challenging thing, especially when students have no interest with the subject.
I think the 20-minute writing every week is a good practice personally, as it makes me think and reach deeper to my heart and soul.
Sometimes, internal thoughts flow naturally as you write when listening to the music.
Good job Edwin! By the way, won’t be teaching anymore? Will u?
I might teach again. I’m not sure, though. I fee like I need a change is the main thing, Jacinta. Thank you for being so honest. It was great having you in class. you didn’t mince words ;)